I need a break.

I'm over the over, OVER, cheerfulness of my teachers, and friends, and people in general. It only ever seems to be me who is upset, WHY IS THAT? Am I the only needy, weirdo out here?! I'm missing Lisa so extremely much, I hardly manage without seeing her each week, how am I going to go without her in my life at all? I never really noticed when we got close, we just did. And I'm going to miss all our talks, hugs and prayer together. Lisa would have to be the most influential person I have in my life, and although I'm happy she is preggers and about to start a new family, I can't help but miss her, a lot. Mrs graves is also pregnant, meaning she won't be teaching next year either. Why is it that when I get close to someone, they walk away?  Is it funny, God? Is anyone laughing out there? Waiting to jump out and tell me it's all a joke, because it's not funny, I'm lonely. I need a hand to hold right now. And I guess my testimony speaks for itself.